Scene: In an upper chamber of a boarding-house in Melanchthon Place, Boston, a mature, plain young lady, with every appearance of establishing herself in the room for the first time, moves about, bestowing little touches of decoration here and there, and talking with another young lady, whose voice comes through the open doorway of an inner room.
Miss Ethel Reed, from within: “What in the world are you doing, Nettie?”
Miss Henrietta Spaulding: “Oh, sticking up a household god or two. What are you doing?”
Miss Reed: “Despairing.”
Miss Spaulding: “Still?”
Miss Reed, tragically: “Still! How soon did you expect me to stop? I am here on the sofa, where I flung myself two hours ago, and I don’t think I shall ever get up. There is no reason why I ever should.”
Miss Spaulding, suggestively: “Dinner.”
Miss Reed: “Oh, dinner! Dinner, to a broken heart!”
Miss Spaulding: “I don’t believe your heart is broken.”
Miss Reed: “But I tell you it is! I ought to know when my own heart is broken, I should hope. What makes you think it isn’t?”
Miss Spaulding: “Oh, it’s happened so often!”
Miss Reed: “But this is a real case. You ought to feel my forehead. It’s as hot!”
Miss Spaulding: “You ought to get up and help me put this room to rights, and then you would feel better.”
Miss Reed: “No; I should feel worse. The idea of household gods makes me sick. Sylvan deities are what I want; the great god Pan among the cat-tails and arrow-heads in the ‘ma’sh’ at Ponkwasset; the dryads of the birch woods—there are no oaks; the nymphs that haunt the heights and hollows of the dear old mountain; the”—
Miss Spaulding: “Wha-a-at? I can’t hear a word you say.”
Miss Reed: “That’s because you keep fussing about so. Why don’t you be quiet, if you want to hear?” She lifts her voice to its highest pitch, with a pause for distinctness between the words: “I’m heart-broken for—Ponkwasset. The dryads—of the—birch woods. The nymphs—and the great—god—Pan—in the reeds—by the river. And all—that—sort of—thing!”
Miss Spaulding: “You know very well you’re not.”
Miss Reed: “I’m not? What’s the reason I’m not? Then, what am I heart-broken for?”
Miss Spaulding: “You’re not heart-broken at all. You know very well that he’ll call before we’ve been here twenty-four hours.”
Miss Reed: “Who?”
Miss Spaulding: “The great god Pan.”
Miss Reed: “Oh, how cruel you are, to mock me so! Come in here, and sympathize a little! Do, Nettie.”
Miss Spaulding: “No; you come out here and utilize a little. I’m acting for your best good, as they say at Ponkwasset.”
Miss Reed: “When they want to be disagreeable!”
Miss Spaulding: “If this room isn’t in order by the time he calls, you’ll be everlastingly disgraced.”
Miss Reed: “I’m that now. I can’t be more so—there’s that comfort. What makes you think he’ll call?”
Miss Spaulding: “Because he’s a gentleman, and will want to apologize. He behaved very rudely to you.”
Miss Reed: “No, Nettie; I behaved rudely to him. Yes! Besides, if he behaved rudely, he was no gentleman. It’s a contradiction in terms, don’t you see? But I’ll tell you what I’m going to do if he comes. I’m going to show a proper spirit for once in my life. I’m going to refuse to see him. You’ve got to see him.”
Miss Spaulding: “Nonsense!”
Miss Reed: “Why nonsense? Oh, why? Expound!”
Miss Spaulding: “Because he wasn’t rude to me, and he doesn’t want to see me. Because I’m plain, and you’re pretty.”
Miss Reed: “I’m not! You know it perfectly well. I’m hideous.”
Miss Spaulding: “Because I’m poor, and you’re a person of independent property.”
Miss Reed: “ Dependent property, I should call it: just enough to be useless on! But that’s insulting to him. How can you say it’s because I have a little money?”
Miss Spaulding: “Well, then, I won’t. I take it back. I’ll say it’s because you’re young, and I’m old.”
Miss Reed: “You’re not old. You’re as young as anybody, Nettie Spaulding. And you know I’m not young; I’m twenty-seven, if I’m a day. I’m just dropping into the grave. But I can’t argue with you, miles off so, any longer.” Miss Reed appears at the open door, dragging languidly after her the shawl which she had evidently drawn round her on the sofa; her fair hair is a little disordered, and she presses it into shape with one hand as she comes forward; a lovely flush vies with a heavenly pallor in her cheeks; she looks a little pensive in the arching eyebrows, and a little humorous about the dimpled mouth. “Now I can prove that you are entirely wrong. Where—were you?—This room is rather an improvement over the one we had last winter. There is more of a view”—she goes to the window—“of the houses across the Place; and I always think the swell front gives a pretty shape to a room. I’m sorry they’ve stopped building them. Your piano goes very nicely into that little alcove. Yes, we’re quite palatial. And, on the whole, I’m glad there’s no fireplace. It’s a pleasure at times; but for the most part it’s a vanity and a vexation, getting dust and ashes over everything. Yes; after all, give me the good old-fashioned, clean, convenient register! Ugh! My feet are like ice.” She pulls an easy-chair up to the register in the corner of the room, and pushes open its valves with the toe of her slipper. As she settles herself luxuriously in the chair, and poises her feet daintily over the register: “Ah, this is something like! Henrietta Spaulding, ma’am! Did I ever tell you that you were the best friend I have in the world?”
Miss Spaulding, who continues her work of arranging the room: “Often.”
Miss Reed: “Did you ever believe it?”
Miss Spaulding: “Never.”
Miss Reed: “Why?”
Miss Spaulding, thoughtfully regarding a vase which she holds in her hand, after several times shifting it from a bracket to the corner of her piano and back: “I wish I could tell where you do look best!”
Miss Reed, leaning forward wistfully, with her hands clasped and resting on her knees: “I wish you would tell me why you don’t believe you’re the best friend I have in the world.”
Miss Spaulding, finally placing the vase on the bracket: “Because you’ve said so too often.”
Miss Reed: “Oh, that’s no reason! I can prove to you that you are. Who else but you would have taken in a homeless and friendless creature like me, and let her stay bothering round in demoralizing idleness, while you were seriously teaching the young idea how to drub the piano?”
Miss Spaulding: “Anybody who wanted a room-mate as much as I did, and could have found one willing to pay more than her share of the lodging.”
Miss Reed, thoughtfully: “Do you think so, Henrietta?”
Miss Spaulding: “I know so.”
Miss Reed: “And you’re not afraid that you wrong yourself?”
Miss Spaulding: “Not the least.”
Miss Reed: “Well, be it so—as they say in novels. I will not contradict you; I will not say you are my best friend; I will merely say that you are my only friend. Come here, Henrietta. Draw up your chair, and put your little hand in mine.”
Miss Spaulding, with severe distrust: “What do you want, Ethel Reed?”
Miss Reed: “I want—I want—to talk it over with you.”
Miss Spaulding, recoiling: “I knew it! Well, now, we’ve talked it over enough; we’ve talked it over till there’s nothing left of it.”
Miss Reed: “Oh, there’s everything left! It remains in all its original enormity. Perhaps we shall get some new light upon it.” She extends a pleading hand towards Miss Spaulding. “Come, Henrietta, my only friend, shake!—as the ‘good Indians’ say. Let your Ethel pour her hackneyed sorrows into your bosom. Such an uncomfortable image, it always seems, doesn’t it, pouring sorrows into bosoms! Come!”
Miss Spaulding, decidedly: “No, I won’t! And you needn’t try wheedling any longer. I won’t sympathize with you on that basis at all.”
Miss Reed: “What shall I try, then, if you won’t let me try wheedling?”
Miss Spaulding, going to the piano and opening it: “Try courage; try self-respect.”
Miss Reed: “Oh, dear! when I haven’t a morsel of either. Are you going to practise, you cruel maid?”
Miss Spaulding: “Of course I am. It’s half-past four, and if I don’t do it now I sha’n’t be prepared to-morrow for Miss Robins: she takes this piece.”
Miss Reed: “Well, well, perhaps it’s all for the best. If music be the food of—umph-ump!—you know what!—play on.” They both laugh, and Miss Spaulding pushes back a little from the piano, and wheels toward her friend, letting one hand rest slightly on the keys.
Miss Spaulding: “Ethel Reed, you’re the most ridiculous girl in the world.”
Miss Reed: “Correct!”
Miss Spaulding: “And I don’t believe you ever were in love, or ever will be.”
Miss Reed: “Ah, there you wrong me, Henrietta! I have been, and I shall be—lots of times.”
Miss Spaulding: “Well, what do you want to say now? You must hurry, for I can’t lose any more time.”
Miss Reed: “I will free my mind with neatness and despatch. I simply wish to go over the whole affair, from Alfred to Omaha; and you’ve got to let me talk as much slang and nonsense as I want. And then I’ll skip all the details I can. Will you?”
Miss Spaulding, with impatient patience: “Oh, I suppose so!”
Miss Reed: “That’s very sweet of you, though you don’t look it. Now, where was I? Oh, yes, do you think it was forth-putting at all, to ask him if he would give me the lessons?”
Miss Spaulding: “It depends upon why you asked him.”
Miss Reed: “I asked him from—from—Let me see; I asked him because—from—Yes, I say it boldly; I asked him from an enthusiasm for art, and a sincere wish to learn the use of oil, as he called it. Yes!”
Miss Spaulding: “Are you sure?”
Miss Reed: “Sure? Well, we will say that I am, for the sake of argument. And, having secured this basis, the question is whether I wasn’t bound to offer him pay at the end, and whether he wasn’t wrong to take my doing so in dudgeon.”
Miss Spaulding: “Yes, I think he was wrong. And the terms of his refusal were very ungentlemanly. He ought to apologize most amply and humbly.” At a certain expression in Miss Reed’s face, she adds, with severity: “Unless you’re keeping back the main point. You usually do. Are you?”
Miss Reed: “No, no. I’ve told you everything—everything!”
Miss Spaulding: “Then I say, as I said from the beginning, that he behaved very badly. It was very awkward and very painful, but you’ve really nothing to blame yourself for.”
Miss Reed, ruefully: “No-o-o!”
Miss Spaulding: “What do you mean by that sort of ‘No’?”
Miss Reed: “Nothing.”
Miss Spaulding, sternly: “Yes, you do, Ethel.”
Miss Reed: “I don’t, really. What makes you’ think I do?”
Miss Spaulding: “It sounded very dishonest.”
Miss Reed: “Did it? I didn’t mean it to.” Her friend breaks down with a laugh, while Miss Reed preserves a demure countenance.
Miss Spaulding: “What are you keeping back?”
Miss Reed: “Nothing at all—less than nothing! I never thought it was worth mentioning.”
Miss Spaulding: “Are you telling me the truth?”
Miss Reed: “I’m telling you the truth and something more. You can’t ask better than that, can you?”
Miss Spaulding, turning to her music again: “Certainly not.”
Miss Reed: in a pathetic wail: “O Henrietta! do you abandon me thus? Well, I will tell you, heartless girl! I’ve only kept it back till now because it was so extremely mortifying to my pride as an artist—as a student of oil. Will you hear me?”
Miss Spaulding, beginning to play: “No.”
Miss Reed, with burlesque wildness: “You shall!” Miss Spaulding involuntarily desists. “There was a moment—a fatal moment—when he said he thought he ought to tell me that if I found oil amusing I could go on; but that he didn’t believe I should ever learn to use it, and he couldn’t let me take lessons from him with the expectation that I should. There!”
Miss Spaulding, with awful reproach: “And you call that less than nothing? I’ve almost a mind never to speak to you again, Ethel. How could you deceive me so?”
Miss Reed: “Was it really deceiving? I shouldn’t call it so. And I needed your sympathy so much, and I knew I shouldn’t get it unless you thought I was altogether in the right.”
Miss Spaulding: “You are altogether in the wrong! And it’s you that ought to apologize to him —on your bended knees. How could you offer him money after that? I wonder at you, Ethel!”
Miss Reed: “Why—don’t you see, Nettie?—I did keep on taking the lessons of him. I did find oil amusing—or the oilist—and I kept on. Of course I had to, off there in a farmhouse full of lady boarders, and he the only gentleman short of Crawford’s. Strike, but hear me, Henrietta Spaulding! What was I to do about the half-dozen lessons I had taken before he told me I should never learn to use oil? Was I to offer to pay him for these, and not for the rest; or was I to treat the whole series as gratuitous? I used to lie awake thinking about it. I’ve got little tact, but I couldn’t find any way out of the trouble. It was a box—yes, a box of the deepest dye! And the whole affair having got to be—something else, don’t you know?—made it all the worse. And if he’d only—only—But he didn’t. Not a syllable, not a breath! And there I was. I had to offer him the money. And it’s almost killed me—the way he took my offering it, and now the way you take it! And it’s all of a piece.” Miss Reed suddenly snatches her handkerchief from her pocket, and buries her face in it.—“Oh, dear—oh, dear! Oh!—hu, hu, hu!”
Miss Spaulding, relenting: “It was awkward.”
Miss Reed: “Awkward! You seem to think that because I carry things off lightly I have no feeling.”
Miss Spaulding: “You know I don’t think that, Ethel.”
Miss Reed, pursuing her advantage: “I don’t know it from you, Nettie. I’ve tried and tried to pass it off as a joke, and to treat it as something funny; but I can tell you it’s no joke at all.”
Miss Spaulding, sympathetically: “I see, dear.”
Miss Reed: “It’s not that I care for him”—
Miss Spaulding: “Why, of course.”
Miss Reed: “For I don’t in the least. He is horrid every way: blunt, and rude, and horrid. I never cared for him. But I care for myself! He has put me in the position of having done an unkind thing—an unladylike thing—when I was only doing what I had to do. Why need he have taken it the way he did? Why couldn’t he have said politely that he couldn’t accept the money because he hadn’t earned it? Even that would have been mortifying enough. But he must go and be so violent, and rush off, and—Oh, I never could have treated anybody so!”
Miss Spaulding: “Not unless you were very fond of them.”
Miss Reed: “What?”
Miss Spaulding: “Not unless you were very fond of them.”
Miss Reed, putting away her handkerchief: “Oh, nonsense, Nettie! He never cared anything for me, or he couldn’t have acted so. But no matter for that. He has fixed everything so that it can never be got straight—never in the world. It will just have to remain a hideous mass of—of— I don’t know what; and I have simply got to on withering with despair at the point where I left off. But I don’t care! That’s one comfort.”
Miss Spaulding: “I don’t believe he’ll let you wither long, Ethel.”
Miss Reed: “He’s let me wither for twenty-four hours already! But it’s nothing to me, now, how long he lets me wither. I’m perfectly satisfied to have the affair remain as it is. I am in the right, and if he comes I shall refuse to see him.”
Miss Spaulding: “Oh, no, you won’t, Ethel!”
Miss Reed: “Yes, I shall. I shall receive him very coldly. I won’t listen to any excuse from him.”
Miss Spaulding: “Oh, yes, you will, Ethel!”
Miss Reed: “No, I shall not. If he wishes me to listen he must begin by humbling himself in the dust—yes, the dust, Nettie! I won’t take anything short of it. I insist that he shall realize that I have suffered.”
Miss Spaulding: “Perhaps he has suffered too!”
Miss Reed: “Oh, he suffered!”
Miss Spaulding: “You know that he was perfectly devoted to you.”
Miss Reed: “He never said so.”
Miss Spaulding: “Perhaps he didn’t dare.”
Miss Reed: “He dared to be very insolent to me.”
Miss Spaulding: “And you know you liked him very much.”
Miss Reed: “I won’t let you say that, Nettie Spaulding. I didn’t like him. I respected and admired him; but I didn’t like him. He will come near me; but if he does he has to begin by—by—Let me see, what shall I make him begin by doing?” She casts up her eyes for inspiration while she leans forward over the register. “Yes, I will! He has got to begin by taking that money!”
Miss Spaulding: “Ethel, you wouldn’t put that affront upon a sensitive and high-spirited man!”
Miss Reed: “Wouldn’t I? You wait and see, Miss Spaulding! He shall take the money, and he shall sign a receipt for it. I’ll draw up the receipt now, so as to have it ready, and I shall ask him to sign it the very moment he enters this door—the very instant!” She takes a portfolio from the table near her, without rising, and writes: “‘Received from Miss Ethel Reed one hundred and twenty-five dollars, in full, for twenty-five lessons in oil-painting.’ There—when Mr. Oliver Ransom has signed this little document he may begin to talk; not before!” She leans back in her chair with an air of pitiless determination.
Miss Spaulding: “But, Ethel, you don’t mean to make him take money for the lessons he gave you after he told you you couldn’t learn anything?”
Miss Reed, after a moment’s pause: “Yes, I do. This is to punish him. I don’t wish for justice now; I wish for vengeance! At first I would have compromised on the six lessons, or on none at all, if he had behaved nicely; but after what’s happened I shall insist upon paying him for every lesson, so as to make him feel that the whole thing, from first to last, was a purely business transaction on my part. Yes, a purely — BUSINESS — TRANSACTION!”
Miss Spaulding, turning to her music: “Then I’ve got nothing more to say to you, Ethel Reed.”
Miss Reed: “I don’t say but what, after he’s taken the money and signed the receipt, I’ll listen to anything else he’s got to say, very willingly.” Miss Spaulding makes no answer, but begins to play with a scientific absorption, feeling her way fitfully through the new piece, while Miss Reed, seated by the register, trifles with the book she has taken from the table.